Monday, 30 March 2015

Ghost I get it.

Okay it's time to get serious. I have so many unfinished books it is making me crazy. I am so unsettled by my easy ability to churn out the beginnings of novels, (sometimes middles as well) I am starting to think about asking for some real help.
I never understood why any writer would ask another writer to write their books, that makes them a storyteller but not a writer, no craft, no graft. Now here I ma thinking, is there anyone out there who can take my Vampyres novel and finish it because I just can't and it's really hurting me. I love it, I adore it, I believe it is probably the best book I have written and yet I cannot finish it. In my head I see the ending, I know them I know what happens to them so why can't I just write it down?
Every time I re-open the file I start messing about with the beginning, that's why. Every time. Hundreds of them, hundreds of failed attempts to not look at the first chapter, completely ignore the start and skip to where I left off. But I don't trust myself, I know I will tamper. I am now at the stage where I don't want to look at it anymore. I wish I knew someone who would take it, shape it and write it to conclusion, I can tell them what is will be. HELP!

Sunday, 27 April 2014

Rewind Her Heart's Desire Book I

Rewind to my first release: Her Heart's Desire, the first book in the Highcroft saga, check it out on Siren publishing. If you love Downton Abbey you'll love this—it's sexier. The next two books in the series are also available. . . . .

Sunday, 26 January 2014

Ryan's Destiny Amazon Best Seller

Ryan's Destiny
Ryan's Destiny Amazon Best Seller

I'm so pleased that my latest book Ryan's Destiny, the first in the Rodeo Sanctuary Series has hit the best seller list on Amazon. I can't wait to get to work on the next one in the series to entice you all.

Thanks for everyone who supports my work!


Wednesday, 30 January 2013

Keep trying, never give up!

Working hard on trying to promote Hearts and Eternal. Subbed to a few pubs, entered a few comps and written few more books. Just not prepared to give up my dream. I will earn enough to live from my writing and I will renovate my house in Bulgaria, sit on the terrace, gaze out over the hills and write, write write!

My world is filled with confusion and characters who just refuse to go away. Thankfully the cowboys have gone. Well the first installment anyway. I have a feeling I will be meeting them again in the near future. I left Ryan and Sam happily settled in their ranch but I just know life won't stay simple for long....

The vampyres have run amok....I can't reign them in. I don't think that story is ever going to end.
Now it's back to the most pressing one, the love story. Ahh... isn't it always the hardest?

Bye for now x

Wednesday, 25 January 2012

Sexy Rodeo Cowboys

I am almost finished my first MM COWBOY romance. It is coming along really well and I'm now something of an expert on the Rodeo, I now know all about 'spinning' How the bull will buck, twist and jump.

Cowboys follow the white line,are members of the PRCA,compete in the DNCF, the NFR....12 circuits, the names, the places, and funny little facts like in Pecatello it used to be illegal if you didn't smile!

I am loving my characters, Ryan and Sam. I am so pleased with how they have turned out. I will be sorry to say goodbye! ( good job it's only book one in my new series , of course!)

So, off to bed all happy with my review for 'Her Hearts Desire' which is the first and favourite of my little books.

Night night. x

Monday, 5 December 2011

Harlequin submission

Well, I am almost ready to submit my historical romance to Harlequin. So nervous and excited too, worked reaslly hard I just hope they like it! I know competition is fierce but it's one of those dreams to make come true...I have always harboured a desire to write for Mills & Boon, I so hope I will, and soon!

I am working on so many story's my head is choc full of strange folk all yammering for my attention, it's like, 'get in line!' I really have to focus to direct my full attention to one group of characters and in my my mind's eye I see the rest of them sulking around, looking pissed off and neglected, itching to get on with their lives. Gosh I could write a whole book about characters and the writing process from their perspective, would be funny.hmm...or am I just losing my mind?

Oh found a lovely definition of the word Vagabond - The critic Arthur Compton-Rickett (1869–1937) used the term to denote a literary type, which he characterised as "with a vagrant strain in the blood, a natural inquisitiveness about the world beyond their doors." That is so me. perfect! I love words!

Back to it!

Monday, 21 November 2011

Excerpt from Ryan's Destiny

Ryan's Destiny Excerpt Chapter One

'Ryan Jenner narrowed his steely blue eyes and clenched his fist tightly around the rope. Every nerve in his body tensed as the bull between his legs stomped at the ground and snorted, its huge head dipping and jerking. His heartbeat drilled through him as he gripped the beast’s girth with his thighs. He knew he was in for a rough ride. Sweat beaded on his brow, he took a deep breath and raised his arm. “Okay, boys!”

The gate flew open and he was out. The bull thrashed and bucked wildly, immediately trying to throw him off. Ryan gritted his teeth and moved with the beast. He had a good seat, and he focused all his energy into staying on it. Then the bull started spinning. Oh, fuck. He bore down and clenched his muscles until they burned.

“Ryan Jenner needs to cowboy up and ride that bull for a full eight seconds, folks!” The announcer’s voice boomed over the mic system. “He hasn’t been bucked off once this entire season. Can he make it a record?”

The crowd cheered and whooped as Ryan spun with the bull as it thrashed wildly around the arena, its hooves beating up clouds of dust as Ryan flailed on top like a rag doll. He slipped to the side and the crowd gasped. Ryan thought of his mom and channelled all his energy into holding on for the final seconds. He grimaced as sweat dripped into his eyes and he slipped a little bit more. The bull gave him one final spin. His heart pumped so hard and fast he was sure it might explode. He gritted his teeth and clung on as the bull tried its very best to buck him off.'

Tuesday, 25 October 2011

Writers block, HELP!

I have come to realise I just have to write for my own pleasure, as long as I am getting something out of it then I shall never stop. If I have prolonged periods where I don't write, I feel crappy. When I do I feel elated.

If only I could be more consistent, I just don't understand why I am experiencing such gaps in writing ...going to try reiki today, do a bit of unblocking. Started another novel last night, well at 2am, was wide awake and it just kept coming at me so I was desperately trying to get it down in my blackberry. Everytime I thought, right, that's it and shut my eyes, the thoughts came zooming at me. I'm quite amazed at how much a blackberry will hold in the notes folder.

Tonight I will have my pad at the ready. When I come back from the gym I will try to get it down in a doc but feel guilty because so close to finishing my other WIPS and I feel as though the characters are sulking, sitting around scuffing their heels feeling neglected, abandoned and wasted. Oh how I wish I could finish those stories, I love them too! I think they are the best I have written so why can't I finish them? If anyone has any theories or advice I would value it!

Thursday, 20 October 2011

Greedy girl NEEDS HELP!

I can't stop eating. Am I trying to fill a void in my life with food? I joined the gym and went this morning then I came home and ate half my body weight in crap. I am quite worried.
The gym boy said I am 25% overweight. Hmm..not good. Worse was when he asked me where my belly button was so he could measure my waist. WTF? I felt quite insulted.
Then he tried to kill me with 5 kg dumbell lifts and push ups, despite me telling him I was very tired and it was my first work out in ten years.
And still I write nothing. Still I have six WIPS that haunt me in the night. I want to go to India, I want to go somewhere....I need some inspiration! HELP!

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

Another great review, so happy!

The lovely Lindsey Hutchinson over at United by Books has posted her  review of 'Eternal Desires'. I am so happy she liked it. I am still bashing away at my Vampyres of Varna and my Rodeo love story.

I have sent them to my best friend Debbie who reads everything i write before I submit. This is invaluable to me as 'fresh eyes' are absolutely necessary. Sometimes I will open up a doc I have worked on ages ago and set aside and it takes a moment or two to digest I actually wrote it, so unfamiliar does it appear. I love that feeling, ( well, only if it's good) so thank goodness for best friends, a writers best friend is a true friend indeed!

Monday, 26 September 2011

Whipped Cream Guest Blogger

I am guest blogging over on whipped cream reviews on the 28th. Drop in! Talking about being  a new author. Still working on my 6 WIPS. I am beyond frustrated now! Had a break in Budapest thought I would come back all guns blazing but no, still procrastinating. My stumbling block is who to send my two Highcroft Saga sequels to. As Her Heart's Desire is the first and it's already out there, I don't see how I can publish them elsewhere.

If anyone can help me on this please please contact me! I love them , they are such great stories and it would be a shame to waste them. Toying with rewriting bits and turning into another story but it just seems a shame as they are such well rounded characters and the plot is intricate and dramatic, I would lose the feel of it if I changed the characters names, looks and personalities.

My historical vampyre story is my favourite and I am also looking for clues on who I can send that too, I am looking for an agent for mainstream publishing on this one. If anyone knows who first signed Colleen Gleason let me know as mine is very much in the same vein ( no pun intended)

L x

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

Great Barnes & Noble review!

I have had a great review for Eternal Desires on Barnes & Noble, very pleased!

Must read, hot!

Fantastic story about a 400 yr old vampire who craves love above blood. Charles pryce is a vampire with a heart and he falls in Love with Samantha the moment their eyes meet. He woos her and wins her heart but when evil Viktor, Charles sire comes to town, all hell breaks loose!

The evil Viktor is jealous and does not want to lose Charles, his companion and business partner to a human woman. This story moves fast and is full of action (In and out of the bedroom) it was great, I loved it! The drama that comes before the ending is terrifically written and had me on edge, the ending is awesome!

Monday, 5 September 2011

Lovely Review from Dawne Prochilo!


So thrilled, what a lovely review! I have been busy working on my next 6 stories, desperate to wrap them up, I haven't submitted in ages!

Her Heart's Desire By Lauren Wilder 


Siren Classic: Erotic Contemporary Romance, When Marisa applies for a PA job to an English aristocrat, she expects a stuffy, older gentleman. James St John is anything but. He is an extremely good-looking thirtysomething English charmer. Sparks fly, and the attraction is intense. Marisa, recently heartbroken, fights her desire, cautious about becoming involved with her boss. But James St John is unable to resist the sexual allure between them, and he will not rest until she is in his bed. Marisa soon discovers that Highcroft house hides a hotbed of sin and dark longings. Will its secrets destroy her happiness when love starts to bloom?

Review: Dawne Prochilo 

Wilder does a fabulous job creating a perfect romance with the correct amount of emotion, connection and time lapse to make James and Marisa's love realistic. On the opposite end of the spectrum, she crafted the antagonist, Marcus, to a point of hatred from me as a reader. The combination of all characters adds just the right amount of controversy and believable story line to make this one of the best romances I've read in a long time. 
Wilder is to be applauded and commended for Her Heart's Desire. I HIGHLY recommend this book to all lovers of romance. If I were to give out stars, hearts or letter grading, Wilder would receive a perfect score.

Monday, 22 August 2011

Heart's Desire gets 5 cups from CBLS REVIEWS!

So pleased reviews are starting to come in and they are all great! Phew! The best reward for a writer is knowing their work is enjoyed. Of course I love my books, but there is never any secure faith in me that other people will love them too, so when I hear positive feedback it warms my heart! It also keeps me going, as everyone knows, writers are notoriously sensitive so hearing nice things about my stories really makes my day!

Well, I am now working on a story to replace Her Heart's Desire as the first part of Highcroft saga. I need to start again and then marry it up to the two sequels I have already written for Highcroft. I had a publishing date for them from Siren but decided to withdraw my books (nothing dramatic, I just felt they were not the right publisher for me) So not wanting to waste the two books which in my opinion are really great, I have created a new begining and Hearts will be left as a stand alone.

It is really hard to re name everyone and start again as I can't get Heart's story or James and Marisa out of my mind! But my two leads are now Ellie Bayer and Alex Harrington. So hopefully they will be published in the bumper novel, I am aiming for 90,000 ( as already written 65) When it's finished I iwll send it to Mills & Boon / Harlequin because I've always wanted to publish with them and think my books are definitely more suited to their audience than Sirens.
So, off to work I go!

Wednesday, 17 August 2011

Great Review for Eternal!

Eternal Desires by Lauren Wilder Book Review

My take on it;

Lauren, the author, has deliciously crafted one of the most sensual paranormals I’ve ever read in the book Eternal Desires. The two main characters, Charles and Samantha, were HOT. Their passion scorched the pages (not literally just figuratively).

Lauren created the bedroom moments with the utmost care so that the readers can vividly picture everything. Don’t be surprised if your body temperature rises a few degrees when you read this story.

Now besides the trysts in the sheets, Samantha and Charles are two strong characters whose emotions are easily felt. I cringed when Samantha was hurt near the end of the story but felt elation when Charles, the vampyre/vampire, rescued her.

The ending, oh my goodness, was perfect but I don't want to spoil it so I'll leave that as a surprise.
I highly recommend this book.

I give this story 5 out of 5 red crows.

Thursday, 4 August 2011

Reviews, how to handle...

I just read a new review for my first novel and it's spot on! It feels so nice to read what people think, although if it isn't agreeable I do admit it hurts! I have been lucky so far and I have had only one so so review, you can't please all of the people all of the time though!

I asked other wirters how they cope with negative comments and the general consensus is just to ignore the. There is no point beating yourself up over every little thing, just enjoy the good ones and try to take on board what's been said and if it's constructive it may be useful. I think the hardest part of being a writer is getting the reviews in, but it's part of it so I just have to get used to it. As long as they are as nice as this one then I will be smiling!

Thursday, 21 July 2011

Too long or too short?

Too long or Too Short?

I am struggling. My Vampyres of Varna story is growing and I don't see it stopping anytime soon. I'm fretting because I haven't submitted anything to pubs for two months. Part of me argues that I must try and aim higher, for longer novels and another part says no, just keep sending the small novels, 30,000 min 36 max. Get as many as you can out there then focus on completing a bigger novel, min 50, max 90,000. I just can't decide. I love, love love this story and the characters are so brilliant I adore them, and thus I never want to let them go....but I'm panicking.

I am scared I will never finish it! I have just started another read through and edits and I am adding little bits here and there, fleshing characters out and before I know it something else is going on and the scene is longer, more detailed or I see an opportunity for back story and I just stay at the same bit, the story doesn't actually move on!

Oh I don't know what to do, round it up and finish it at 40,000 or let it breathe and see it through to it's natural conclusion? Okay, I just answered my own question. I have to let it breathe, of course I do! I can't murder my own book! Natasha, Vladimir, Alexander.....Dana, Viktor, raphael, Ivan, Lydia..Midnight! Don't worry I'm not going to kill you all off!

(I am definitely going a bit loopy now.) Sigh. Happy in my madness.

Saturday, 16 July 2011

Inspiration Guest Blog on Raine Delight

My inspiration for 'Heart's Desire'

Talking about Inspiration with Lauren Wilder

I would like to thank Raine for having me as a guest. I really appreciate it Raine, thank you.
My inspiration for my debut novel – ‘Her Heart’s Desire’ sprang from my penchant for sexy, well educated English men and beautiful architecture.

I love England’s stately homes and heritage. I have spent many a happy afternoon strolling through elegant manicured gardens and staring open mouthed at incredible buildings. I have no idea why, but being near such grandeur makes me weak at the knees and the idea of meeting the handsome lord of the manor really gets me going! When I watched Downtown Abbey my desire piqued! I went to Highclere house in Berkshire where the drama is filmed and the ideas came thick and fast (no pun intended)
I decided to write about my own dashing hero and created Highcroft house as his ancestral home. Hence (Lord) James St John was born. He is charming, handsome, titled and super sexy. What more could a woman want?

I also love reading ‘bodice rippers’ and I will read and watch anything with a handsome posh man in it! They really turn me on. I have fallen hard many a time for a suave and sophisticated gent, and subsequently nursed a few broken hearts when the big romances were over. (Cads!) But my failed romances have not put me off. I still adore a real gent. As long as he is tall, dark and handsome, if he talks classy, opens doors, walks to the outside on the pavement, pays for dinner and calls me darling, I will do almost anything he asks in the bedroom. I would do naked cartwheels if I could! Such is my desire for the love of an English Gentleman.

I like my erotica to be set in an environment that has presence and atmosphere and setting my story in a grand Ancestral home gives it tons of that. Think four poster beds and what can be done in them, creaking floorboards, dark passageways (no pun intended), candlelight and roaring fires and you’re on the right track. Give me loads of romance with a bit of kink thrown in and I’m in fantasy heaven! So I wrote ‘Her Heart’s Desire’ and let my imagination run wild. I created Highcroft to satisfy some of my own Heart’s Desires. Step inside and prepare to blush!

Tuesday, 12 July 2011

Sexy Vamps and suspense

My latest release Eternal Desires is out tomorrow at Siren Books. I love this book, the characters are wonderful, likeable, sexy and funny. The baddie Viktor, is vile and repulsive with a sadistic sexual streak that he allows ro rule his behaviour as he runs wild all over London. Charles Pryce is the sexy vamp hero of the tale, and  his love interest Samantha Ellis is smart, sexy and loyal. Their love blooms but Viktor threatens to destroy their happiness and the consequences of his actions are dire.

There is a happy ending, of course, but I loved that I brought to life such intricate characters and tested new waters with the paranormal theme. In all I was thrilled with the result and I intend to write many more vamp tales!

Wednesday, 6 July 2011

My new cover for my new book!

Eternal Desires, Published by Siren Erotic Romance

Charles Pryce is sinfully sexy. Women fall at his feet, literally. He really knows how to treat a woman, but then he should—he’s been around. For over four hundred years!

When he meets Samantha, he falls in love for the first time in centuries. He sets about seducing her, and they are blissfully happy until evil Vamp Viktor rears his ugly head.

Charles is desperate to win Samantha’s heart. He wants her for all eternity, but will she still want him when she discovers his dark secret?

Tuesday, 5 July 2011

Being a new author

Guest Blog on Dawne Prochilo's Blog

I'm guest blogging over at Dawne Prochilo's blog today about being a new author. I really enjoy being a part of the community of author's blogs. Check it out.

Friday, 1 July 2011


I'm a Guest at Beth Carter's Blog

I'm a guest today on the lovely Beth Carter's blog. The subject is inspiration and I write about the inspiration for my Highcroft saga and first novel 'Her Heart's Desire' check it out!

I am busy working on my Vampyre novel, it's a full length for a mainstream pub so I'm only a third of the way through at 30,000. I have the whole story plotted in my head so I just have to get the words typed out. This is my biggest work so far and I' m a bit intimidated by the length but I know it's not that much really. If I break it down into three 30,000 word pieces in my head then it doesn't seem so daunting.

My trouble is I am a perfectionist and I can re-write one word, sentence or entire paragraph umpteen times until I am absolutely sure about it. Until I feel that I have absolutely 'nailed it' it niggles at me and demands to be re-done. This is where I fall down. Then the story and word count aren't growing I get frustrated and then I start with my TWA's (Time wasting activities) eating crap, surfing the web and lolling about on the sofa, flicking through the National Enquirer ( top read!) anything to distract myself from dealing with the current problem in the book. I can waste days like this and the result is I dread the next day because I fear I am never going to finish it |(the book, not the day) things aren't that bad yet!
But I will finish it. This I know. One day soon I will type those magical words, THE END and my heart will soar! Then I can treat myself by returning to the sofa with a cream cake and loads of mags and enjoy them without  feeling guilty! Ahh bliss!

Tuesday, 28 June 2011

New cover for Eternal Desires!

New Cover for Eternal Desires

Well, I got my new cover for my second book, Eternal Desires'. I love it! I am so pleased because this novel is one of my favourites. It's pushed my boundaries with the drama and paranormal content. I had never written anything like it before and I surprised myself. It's got everything, full of romance, lust, drama,suspense and hot sex!

I have started a gay cowboy story now, which really surprises me. I never thought I could write about MM either but I am loving their story too! I had the whole thing sketched out in an hour from beginning to end, the whole plot just presented itself to me on a plate, brilliant! The characters are really likeable and the story is strong with a great conflict and heart warming ending. Now i just have to write it proper!

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

Release day!

Release day for 'Her Heart's Desire' today.

I am finally a published author :)

Trying not to check my sales stats compulsively,  but God it's hard not to!

If  'Heart's' sells a respectable amount my other books should be well received and my dream of earning enough to be a writer full time will be a huge step closer.

In the meantime, busy working on my bumper novel 'Journey to Angel' to send out to agents.
If anyone can recommend a brilliant agent who could represent this new women's fiction author please let me know!

Okay going to get cakes, need a naughty treat. Then back to work. I have my second vampire story to finish!

Happy reading!

L xxx

Monday, 20 June 2011

First novel out tomorrow!

New Release by Siren Books

My first novel 'Her Heart's Desire' is out tomorrow. I am very excited. I hope people like it as much as I do.

I am now working on book four in the Highcroft series, so after ' Hearts' which is book one, there is lots of romance, drama and saucy goings on to keep up with!

I have been really busy with my Vampires of Varna series too. Book one is out July 13th. Book two is almost finished and it's a real rollercoaster. Dark, gothic and oh so sexy, I'm loving it!



Friday, 17 June 2011

sexy excerpt - Vampires of Varna

A little snippet from my dramatic, sexy Vampire debut! Enjoy.

Oh yes, I am quite the adventurous type.’ She smiled and he ached to capture her soft sweet lips with his own.
‘Shall we sit a while?’ He asked, his eyes gazing into hers, he felt hypnotised by lust.
She grinned and he took her hand pulling her down into the tall grass, unable to restrain himself a moment longer.
He cupped her face in his hands and kissed her slowly, savouring every second, delighting in the thrill of touching her. 
She moaned beneath him as he kissed her neck, her arms, her hands. She lay back in the grass and he knelt astride her. He watched her bosom heaving, trapped in the tight constraints of her corset. He began to unlace it as he looked into her eyes.
‘I want to see you.’ his fingers hooked around the ribbons and he plucked them out, one by one, gradually loosening her bodice until she was left with only her cotton slip to cover her.
He could see the buds of her nipples straining hard against the thin material. He trailed his fingers over them and they stiffened beneath his touch.
‘Oh Vladimir, I am floating, I cannot breathe…’
‘Hush…you are safe with me….relax, I intend to please you. That is all.’
She sighed and closed her eyes as his hands uncovered her full, ripe breasts. He pulled her slip down to her waist and marveled at her beauty. He gasped as her breasts fell free, feasting his eyes upon her semi naked form. Her skin was creamy and smooth, she was truly beautiful.
‘You are heavenly.’ He whispered as he bent his head and took a nipple in his mouth. He sucked gently as she twisted and gasped beneath him.
‘Vladimir, I can't breathe.’ She cried.
He smiled as his hands pushed beneath her skirts. ’You can, don’t worry.’
He pushed her skirts up as she allowed him to settle in between her milky thighs.
'Vladimir, I I am dying…’
‘No darling, you are not.’ He raised his head and stroked her face. He was lost in her eyes, drowning in her beauty. He pressed against her and she gasped, eyes wide open, fixed on his.
‘I want you to show me.’ She asked.
‘You want to see…’
She pressed her hand against his crotch making him gasp with delight.
‘My manhood ?’
‘Yes.’ She smiled and a naughty grin spread across her pretty face. He felt lured, pulled towards her with such a power he was afraid of what might happen if he released himself so near to her.
‘I cannot Natasha, I would not control myself.’
‘I do not want you to control yourself, I want you to be my lover…’ her eyes were heavy with lust as her hand pressed against him again, her fingers nimble as they felt along his length.
‘Natasha…do you know what you’re saying?’ He stared at her, open mouthed, desperate to take her and make her his...